To blog, or not to blog; that is the question

I have had this blog for a number of years now, but I’ve never really posted with the exception of a few posts for a communication class I took once. The problem with blogging is that it is not private; do I really want to unpack my life in a public forum, for all to read? The answer is, well, kinda. So I’ve decided to give blogging a whirl, because one of my goals is to learn to be more open; not only to let others in, but also to let myself out.

I have some pretty fierce social anxiety along with difficulties expressing myself vocally, but I do write. I have always written, especially when I’m feeling introspective or something is bothering me. Blogging seems like a decent compromise between my private writing and my desire to become more open; an intermediate step of sorts. It will allow me to share of myself in a way that I can currently handle. Maybe, if I can bridge that gap, then I can begin to overcome my fear of self-expression and my fear of really, truly being seen. My real life near-invisibility is a comfortable place, a safe place…but it can be a lonely one at times, because somewhere along the way, I have mostly forgotten how to connect with people.

I have no illusions that anything I put on the internet can be kept totally separate from my real life, so I’m not even going to try. I am going to write about my experiences and perceptions from my perspective. I probably won’t post regularly, as blogging has to happen around my crazy-busy life.

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2 Comments

  1. Zaman said,

    May 21, 2015 at 5:35 pm

    very interesting.
    “not only to let others in, but also to let myself out”. I guess, we all struggle with that.

  2. Josiane said,

    May 25, 2015 at 11:20 pm

    It’s so true that openness entails flows that go both ways, and so easy to forget it… or rather, so convenient to ignore the part about letting ourselves out. I, too, find it quite challenging more often than not.

    It’ll be lovely to get to know you better through what you’ll choose to share here, and I hope you’ll find this to be a safe space for you to connect with people.


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